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For some reason this past week has been one that I have spent a lot of time reflecting in.  The majority of this past weekend I spent in my room, resting, reading, and watching television.  I finished reading the book Eat, Pray, Love which I couldn't put down  and made me seriously reflect on my own life and ambitions.  As I read the book I wanted to be the girl in the book leaving everything behind and traveling to Italy, India and Indonesia.  I wanted to live her adventure and then I realized I am living my own.  My life is an adventure and I AM doing what I have always wanted to do.  I get so many e-mails from home that tell me how lucky I am and from people who wish they were able to do the same thing...and so many times I have laughed at what they said and e-mail them back saying, 'ah, it's not so great and wonderful'.  But the fact is that it is so great and wonderful and its just that its so easy to get caught up in the daily day to day routine that I forget that.  Life should be like that anywhere though.  To be on an adventure you don't have to be really far away from your home in someplace new and exciting to you.  There are bad days wherever you go and the adventure ends when you let those bad days shape your entire week/month/year.  That is what I had been doing.  My job isen't the greatest obviously but that doesn't mean that I have to let it ruin the rest of my experience.  It seems that there will always be one aspect of your life that seeks to ruin the rest of it--maybe its not your job, but its your location.  I refuse to let one aspect of my life dictate the rest of it.  One part of the book that I really enjoyed was when the author went to Indonesia to learn from a great medicine man.  She wanted him to teach her his form of meditation and he simply told her to sit and smile for awhile each day--sit and smile, smile in your liver.  I liked this and so in the morning and at night--no matter what has happened during the day--I make myself sit and smile.