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The six on my keyboard isen't working very well. Very annoying when my login name to most online things is rosegirl"six"4. I mean it works if I press it rather hard, but I'm annoyed at whatever is stuck beneath it. I've gotten things out before with toothpicks, but it doesn't seem worth it.

I'm tired. Life makes me tired, work makes me tired, school makes me tired. I'm not sure it's a physical tired or some other tired being tied in with the spirit. I read a lot about religion and neurotic people. According to Freud's 'theory of religion' religious people are neurotic.

Sometimes when I am listening to my music I think I hear the doorbell ring and so I go downstairs to make sure no one is there just stopping by to greet me. The UPS man rings the doorbell.

In Monroe, Ohio they built a gigantic Jesus with arms outstretched. It cost one quarter of a million dollars. I'm not sure I have to comment anymore on this. We all form our own conclusions; hopefully we see the inpracticality of it all.

It's getting cold and they haven't turned on our heat yet. I have been sitting by the space heater today. I have socks and my slippers on. I think it's raining outside. I went out for coffee earlier, but didn't drink it all because it tasted burnt.

I'm thinking about so many things. I forget where I am sometimes. I lose sight of where I want to go. I write words I can't put to music and music I can't find words for. It is hard to combine the two. I'm beginning to think that my unconcious doesn't want to combine the two. I laugh at the thought of my unconcious.

We fail. We pull ourselves up and keep going. We all have things we don't like about ourselves that we try in vain to hide from others. You cannot think of yourself as alone in any struggle.